"Now I'm wondering where you've always been"

Dear Reader,

Time really does fly by when you’re on holiday. It’s been more than three weeks since I’ve been in Brunei. Honestly, I dread the moment when the time comes for me to fly back to the other side of the world. When will I next see my family and friends? I do not want to dwell on that. The past year has given me a lot of ups and downs, drastic changes, terrible homesickness and the like. Of course, getting to go overseas for studies is a privilege and I am very aware of that, but it would be much better if I had family and friends with me, those who have known me for years. Being in a different place allows me a chance to sort of start over, and I am glad for that chance. Sigh. It’s so confusing being human a lot of the time.

I have been dreaming a lot ever since I came back. I rarely ever dream when I was over there. I do dream, occasionally, but rarely do I ever actually remember the dream itself. My dreams here have consisted of my two old schools, and people I have known for a while. What does it mean? The dreams don’t make any sense; maybe it’s just a product of a less active mind. After all, all I have been doing is spending time in front of the TV, or even more so, in front of the computer. Did I mention I got a slightly-faster-than-the-old connection now? ;-)

Are you not glad I am finally picking up on blogging once again? I have even opened a WP blog, because of the selective password protection function, which is really convenient. Only a selected few will be able to view those password protected posts. As for unprotected posts, they’ll mostly be short posts, mostly cryptic. This is a more public one, and I don’t want you guys to get confused. However, if you ARE curious about that other blog, do drop me a Facebook message or just leave a message somewhere; I might just give you the link. =) And maybe the password too. I have already said it’s a WP blog. As for hints, let’s say that’s…personal. XD

New look

Dear Reader,

I thought I'd change it up a little bit here. Done with the black background; I've been thinking of changing to a fresher, brighter background. What do you think?

It's been three weeks since I came back to Brunei. Many things, including people, haven't changed, which serves as sort of a comfort to me. I remember there was once a friend who told me that she was afraid of the future, afraid how people will change and things with friends who were once close will become different. I feared the same, but that fear has lessened somewhat. I guess you just have to learn to grow up. And those who don't grow up, will end up being stagnant, and possibly even despised by others.

I visited PTEM the other day with CH, WeeHong, Ben and MuiFoon. It felt really good meeting up with friends and seeing ex-teachers again. The new school is great, but honestly I prefer PTEB. For various reason, hahaha. When's the sushi outing?

Last night I had sort of a very intense MSN convo, about friends, fakers, and just dealing with different kinds of people in general. I am glad you're still you too. And myself as well. I don't know when the next time I'll come back to Brunei, hopefully next summer but who knows, I might stay there and find a job or something.

Most of the time, people are too quick to make negative criticisms about others. It's so easy for a person to complain about someone else; you'd find a lot of bad points to talk about. It's funny how it takes a little bit more effort to talk about someone else's good point(s) and to further elaborate on that. Talking about bad points? The words may flow like a river. It's ironic. And sad sometimes.

Welcome back post.

Dear Reader,

I am bored. Oh so bored. It’s inhuman. Ugh. The connection in Brunei is crap. I miss Canada because of that. Ugh. At least I get to drive myself around but then there’s the gas to think about. Ugh.

And I have neglected my blog. I have a Xanga account but that’s in Mandarin. Hmm. I have a Wordpress blog, but I don’t really have much on that. What have I been doing? Slow connection equals constant blogging. Fast connection equals negligence. WTF. I would be guilty.

I have spring-cleaned my Facebook friends list. Really, who ARE all these people? Why did I accept/add people whom I do not personally know just because we have a few friends in common?

Sigh. Poor MJ. His “Thriller” will always be my favourite. I was sleeping, and I woke up the next morning, checked FB, and that was how I got the news. Funny how we don’t really get news from…the news anymore. It’s either Twitter or Facebook or blogs…

H1N1 flu. There were no cases when I got back. A week later there were 7. Now there are like 20+. Maybe more. It’s scary. I wore a mask all the way from Canada to Brunei. Better to be safe than sorry. Edmonton – Vancouver – San Francisco – Hong Kong – Singapore – Brunei. 20+ hours. OMG. It felt great to land. Haha. But I didn’t miss the humid weather. LOL. I certainly missed the faster internet connection in Canada…

I’msoboredI’mgoingnuts.

Hey y'all!

Dear Reader,

I AM BACK IN BRUNEI!!! XD

Thoughts

Dear Reader

I have reservations on whether I should continue updating this blog, because I feel like I have been neglecting it so much. I feel that I should just let it go and give it a proper rest.

Then again, I tend to change my mind a lot. So I am really quite torn right now.

Neglecting a blog means losing readers, and I don't know who reads this blog anymore. I have two other blogs, one of which is in Chinese, and the other...I just use it for its password protection (yes, it's Wordpress).

So here you go, not the update you quite expected, huh?